Raw Emotions, Rough Road.

I just want to say thank you to Grace for this amazing book called Crossing Intersections. I especially relate to the section of the book about being Frustrated and Angry.

My Name is Estie, I am a 42 year old Single Female.  I am a South African. I grew up In Pretoria and I moved to Johannesburg (JHB) when I was 21 years old where I worked a PA /Secretary for most of my life and then in 2004 I got to work in Dubai and when it did not work out the way I wanted it to work out I was forced to come back to South Africa.  I lived in Cape Town for 3 years but was just not adapting to the People and the Laid back lifestyle so I moved back to JHB in 2007 to go an work for a Software Company as a Training Facilitator. I have an extremely Stressful Career, in 2006 I became a Reborn Christian and it has been a tough road ever since that re commitment of my Life to God.

My friends are married and have Children, and I want a Family but I don’t understand God’s plan for my Life as i’m still single.  I got the opportunity to move back to CPT for the same Company, promoted work as a Manager in 2009.  Then last year in 2012 I got demoted out of my Management position and told I must step down so that my Colleague of 1 year with the company can step into my role as he has more Technical Skills then I have.

I was Devastated.

Now I truly don’t understand the purpose of my life.  For the last year I had to learn to forgive the people who made me so angry.

I have been having severe Anxiety and stress attacks so much so that I had to go and see the Dr and been put on an Antidepressants to help me cope with my job.

I have been asking God for the last 6 years what my purpose on this earth is because if it’s to feel this Alone and this stressed then it’s not worth it at all.  Life is too short to stress like this and to be this angry all the time.

And then Grace, Book came out and I read and read until the end.  I phoned her and said I want to do the Pin Code Course and discover the road God Intend my Life to go and I am doing this first weekend in October and I cannot wait to see where GOD is taking me and showing me my True Purpose and  New Journey!

Watch this space……..

Written by Estie Erasmus

Estie Erasmus

Estie Erasmus currently lives and works in Cape Town, South Africa. She is a Training Facilitator for an established Software Company with offices in various parts of the Country.

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